To My Dearest...

Rayyan

Mama is so worried that you are unwell for the past few weeks. Your coughing is on and off, and you get feverish every now and then, so often that I feel like I am not taking care of you well enough. I feel helpless, that you have to go through this. I hope it is just the season, and I pray to Allah that you will be well soon. And that your immune system will be much stronger. I miss the healthier you so much. And even now that you are sometimes feeling off colour, you just know how to make me laugh and smile.

You and I share those moments when we walk home together after sending Kakak to big school. I will always treasure that. Always. Now that you are feeling poorly, it has been days since we walked together.

Please forgive me if I sometimes lose my patience with you. I would give anything to take away your sickness. I love you with all my heart, and again my anak bungsu sayang, my do'a to Allah that you will soon feel much better.

Qistina

Today your temperature went up a little. I hope that is just your anticipation for your Christmas play at school tomorrow. A little nervousness for the big day. You have a little cough, but you seem determined to shake it off. Mama still worries about you sayang, though you think you are all grown up now that you are in Big School.

Your sense of humour is getting better by the day, making me laugh with your antics. Especially now that you have learnt some new 'tricks' at school. I look forward to the time I pick you up in the afternoons when you will fill me in with the happenings between you and your friends. I love our walks, especially if it is just you and I. I will always treasure the moments we shared together.

You do drive me up the wall sometimes, but I hope you will get well soon anak sulung manja. I look forward to see you on stage, with your twirly skirt, bubbly shirt, and your star bands. As with your Adik, I would give anything to take away your sickness. My prayers to Allah for your health always. I love you so much.

With love

Mama

How do you do that?

* warning : quite a sensitive issue here..

And when?

How do you :-

1. introduce Allah and Islam to a soon-to-be five year old who goes to school sponsored by the Church of England?

It's Christmas and we are in this society where 99% are not muslims. She is involved in a Christmas play involving Christianity. It's fun for her as she's singing all these songs, she gets to go for an excursion to the nearby church to watch plays by the other students, meet the Santa and all...

2. introduce the concept of halal and haram?

She gets hot lunches in school but every morning she will have to choose between the 'red' (meat) or 'green' (vegetarian). Sometimes they have fish in 'red' so she can choose red on those days then. But there are also days when chicken is 'red'. And we eat chicken at home. But she can't choose chicken in school. How do i explain that to her? Obviously i told the teachers that she is allowed to eat fish and vegetarian meals but no meat so that helps when the little one chooses 'red'.

At the moment these are the 2 things that keeps popping up in my head.

I welcome any suggestions from anyone.

Autumn and winter warmers

1. sup ayam kampung (perencah sup adabi)

2. bayam masak lemak

3. roast chicken with rosemary, butter, garlic, pepper and a pinch of salt

4. butter lamb (ready made gravy from Patak's)

5. sambal tumbuk <--- favourite

6. fried seabass with asam jawa

7. telur mata lembu masak sweet and sour

8. many, many versions of nasik goreng

9. many, many versions of bee hoon goreng

10. nasik lemak

11. nasik ayam

12. daging masak merah

13. roast lamb with rosemary, butter, garlic, pepper and a pinch of salt

14. chicken tikka masala (ready made gravy from sainsbury's)

15. cabbage, leeks, carrots masak lemak

16. ayam masak merah

17. curly kale stir fry with ikan bilis

18. ayam masak kicap

19. sup sayur

20. ayam padprik

21. sambal tumis ikan bilis

22. daging goreng blackpepper and halia

23. ayam masak halia

24. ikan bilis goreng kicap bercili kering

25. kari ikan

26. rendang daging (courtesy of brahim's)

27. kari ayam (brahim's also)

i am out of ideas...

so what to cook for tonight? took out the chicken already...

hopefully i will get some inspiration later...

Train Tracks

There's a train track at the back of our house.

Every now and then we will hear the train passes by.

There's a train track at the back of Tok Mama's house.

When we go there, every now and then we will hear the train passes by.

There's a train track at the back of Maktok's house.

When we go back, every now and then, if we listen carefully, we will hear the train passes by.

I wonder if we connect all the tracks we would be able to ride the train to Tok Mama's and Maktok's.

Owh we miss them so much.

Seriously.

The Book of Qistina

On her last day at nursery, her principal early years practioner gave her a journal of her days there, albeit a short 4 weeks.

These are images captured and observation written on Qistina, that I will treasure (oh that emotional crap again hehehe..), since I was not around to see some of the things she did in the nursery with her friends. I truly think she had a great time there. In fact, 2 weeks into Big School, she still sometimes talk about going back to the 'Green Room'.

Thank you Jo Flowers for making her stay truly enjoyable! Qistina still misses you!

Enjoy!

Can u spot Qistina in this picture?

Jo Flowers and Qistina

boots part 2

remember boots? mama strikes back with a vengeance..

Passe-Temps

The english autumn days are gorgeous when the sun is shining and the sky is blue, and especially great if it is during the weekends. It can be cold when it is windy but must not waste such beautiful day nonetheless.

Picnic is a favourite passe-temps. Anywhere. At the park, by the fountain, at the playground, at the rest area and even at our backyard.

For the past 7 weekends since we are here, we have been going on picnics almost every weekend. Except for week 1 when we went to pick up our car :)

Fun! Fun! Fun! Yeayyyy!!

A medley of all sorts

It's been crazy the last few weeks, running around here and there so i thought i'd just strung a few stories together :-

1. Chicken pox

Both of the kids were having chicken pox last week. Even after vaccination you would still get it apparently. But the effect has been very minimal. Syukur alhamdulillah.

They did not have any alarming fever (only Rayyan having a slight raise in temperature 2 weeks prior to the spots coming up but i thought that was because of the flu he had), normal appetites, playing and being active as usual if not more. Qistina had very little spots, none of them visible with her clothes on while Rayyan had more including on top of his head. Itchy and red. But after some calamine lotion and piriton prescribed by the pharmacist and a visit to a local walk-in medical centre, they are both certified fine. Alhamdulillah....

2. Current favourite pastime

Picnic. Every weekend (when weather and health permits that is) without fail so far. More stories and photos in another entry ya?

3. The book of Qistina

Last week was her last day at the nursery as she has been accepted into the nearby school. Big School (as she says it). It was sad leaving the nursery where she had loads of fun, but i am sure she will have fun in Big School as well!

4. Big School

In the UK, children starts school at the term when they will turn 5. In this case, Qistina who will be 5 in February should have started school in September for Primary 1 or Reception*. Anyway, i have been shopping around for schools and alhamdulillah Qistina has been accepted into the nearby school which is 5 minutes walk away. 15-11-10 is her first day. Will have photos up later ok?

*Reception or Primary 1 or FS2 (foundation second year) is the first year of primary school in the United Kingdom and is preceded by nursery, and then followed by Year One - wikipedia

5. The boy who's left at home

Rayyan is lonely when his sister is at school. He now looks forward to the 3 weekly sessions of going to the nursery - or "papa chopis skul" (papa's office school). His vocabulary has increased tremendously though still gibberishly sounding. He's an adventurous eater, very unlike his sister and would try any food that's put on the table. If he likes it he will ask for more :)

He is becoming more independent, wanting to do most things by himself. He sings when he's happy and is very cheeky nowadays.

6. Love thy neighbour

I posted in FB a few weeks back about forgetting my darling neighbour's name. I got it now. I will put that discovery up in another post :wink: :wink:

That's it for now i guess.

Daaaaaaa.........

boots..

those are her boots and his boots..

those are her boots, his boots and HIS boots..

err... where's HER boots?

mama needs to go shopping soon, i guess.

The day the angel got her wings..

Today marks a first for a few things for me. In fact, the past few weeks many things were a first.

For the first time today, my princess flew away from the nest with strangers. Well, not totally strangers strangers, but strangers nevertheless. She went for a school trip with her friends and 'teachers'. Without me. Even just before she boarded the bus she kindly reminded me, "Mama, you are not going to the castle with me ok? I am going with teachers and friends. See you later. Bye!"

Qistina used to be 'cling-wrapper'y and would not go anywhere without me (or her papa). Even when i initially asked her whether she wanted to join the trip, she flatly refused. A different story altogether this morning. A fairy princess she was today, with pink glittery wings and pretty little star wand in hand.

Talking about being sentimental about it..

I am glad that she has found her sense of independence. I am also glad to be able to see her go without tears streaming down her eyes. Or my eyes for that matter.

A first also for Rayyan, to be left alone with me. He gladly waved goodbye to Qistina and said, "See you later Kakak!". Such a good sport Adik. These two are inseparable (without tears that is), but today it is all smiles.

She came back exhausted but entirely happy, and could not stop chatting about it!

On another note, it has been two months since that fateful day and i am loving every second of it. Simply precious and would not do it any other way. Na'aa. Nope. Naheeen.

Hence i should have more time to update this long abandoned blog. Haha..