Friday, 11 February 2011

Totally lost it

Last week was a pure 'off' week for me. For some unexplainable reasons, I was a cranky person. Unexplainable? Naaahhh... Not really... But it is not good enough a reason to act like that.

Anyway, Q started coming back from school bringing her lunch back. Untouched. Almost.

And I went ballistic! Seriously I have never been that angry with her.. And at the end of everything, both of us were crying. She of pain, and me of frustration and guilt. Then we apologise to each other. With lots of hugs and kisses.

What happened to me? I am a crazy, horrible, unreasonable mother. What was I thinking?

That night I went to bed crying, and praying that I would be a more patient mother. I am working on this. Hard.

And then I looked at her sleeping, so peacefully, and my guilt came back. I wish I could take back what I have done.

To my darling Q, I am so, so sorry. I should have not lost my temper. Please forgive me. I love you. So very much no words can describe it.

10 comments:

pizli said...

:)

Naqiya said...

la hai, kesian Mama and Qistina... Qistina memang susah la nak makan dari dulu... try muffin chocolate or pancake, perhaps? since Qistina loves sweet things...

Fertzy said...

**hugsssss****

zeta said...

understand ur situation dear..cuz it always happen to me..
sometimes we can easily lost temper..and we regret it..and wish that we could be more patient rite..huhh..it's really hard to explain..
hugss..may Allah bless u and ur family.. :)

mama_QnR said...

incik pizli...

mengapakah ":)"?

mama_QnR said...

adik, memang lah dia ni susah makan
tapi muffin/pancake for lunch?
don't think so

but anyhow, she has re-started eating all her lunch this week
much to my relief...
alhamdulillah...

mama_QnR said...

tina

tu lah kan
i need that
***hugs*** to you back

miss ya...

mama_QnR said...

zeta

it is totally not an easy thing to do being a full time mommy ni
the times when they drive us up the wall is most challenging
hugs to you back
and may Allah bless you & family too, with your little one...

Che Ta said...

been there too.. huhu
kdg2 rasa cam 'gilakah daku ini?'
pathetic kah?

mama_QnR said...

Che Ta

Kan? Hugs to you too...
We moms are human with feelings..
Cuma hope tahap kesabaran buleh ditingkatkan...